Taking hold of life

... Not sure what to say really! My degree is over and I am a free, penniless man! It is the most amazing feeling in the world, I am free and I am completely relying on God, I'm a king!

Been finally able to write music after so long, one song and a very cool riff which will be the base for a funky rap-metal tune, very Tom Morello-like, it's really exciting. Hopefully next year I'll be able to gig a lot with the band, we just want to make music and play it, having fun and expressing ourselves at the same time. It is such a blessing from God to be able to do that.

I will also have the time to finally pick up from where I left off with all my writing projects, stories, poetry, songs, et caetera. I have so many ideas coming up in my head and so many things I need to finish, my head might just burst. I wish there were an easier way to complete my works, but there obviously is not... The thing is, writing is amazing. You can't know until you try it, it is a bit like spending time with God, you're like "Oh man, I really don't want to do this", then when you get started you remember how beautiful it is, what a feeling it gives you, how fulfilled you feel. Of course, I relate my writing to God, for me, writing is part of spending time with God, I'm being creative with Him alongside me, inspiring me and encouraging me, I am so blessed by it, it is unbelievable! I believe creativity alive in you is one of the things that bring a person to life! Getting in tune with one's artistic side, that is just so amazing and God works through you in that way.

It takes discipline though... If you wait to be inspired you'll be waiting for a long time, instead, you must go out and get in touch with the things that inspire you! Keep your senses alert, it might just be a whisper from God, a sound you hear, a scene you see or a fleeting glimpse you catch, an aroma you smell, a flavour you taste, anything can just fill you with a sense of "I need to do something right now or else I'm going to explode!!". To quote the film American Beauty: "Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it... and my heart is going to cave in." There are moments when that is exactly true...

I was cycling back from church this morning and I looked around... All around me, at a 360 degree angle, there were fields, hills, woods, the sky was blue but slightly darkened by clouds as well as brightened by the sun. The whole scene was still. Completely still! It seemed as though someone had taken a painting and placed it within the firmament, it was really strange, and in a strange way inspiring, something inside of me was reached, if I took that something and used it I could write and write and write... It doesn't take a life shattering experience to be inspired, though a whisper can be life-shattering, it just takes person to invite the Holy Spirit to show them how amazing God is and He will do that through the infinity of things God can do... Writing is a beautiful thing, creating is a beautiful thing. Even if no-one likes what you do, no-one is touched, you will have been touched, you will have been affected. Even if no-one is going to like my song, I'm quite pleased with it, I think it's a good song!

This is the end of my permanence in Crossways 18, CT2 7BS. I moved all my stuff out yesterday, and tomorrow will be moving my butt out as well, if anyone wants to know my address, e-mail me. It was quite strange having to empty my room and move stuff into storage, then sleeping in an empty place, with my sleeping bag. This marks the end of an era... The undergraduate student era. I have hated my degree, but have been so blessed by my life in Canterbury and to be able to stay here another year is such a fantastic blessing. My new house is beautiful and you are more than welcome to come and stay if you feel like a holiday in beautiful Canterbury. No longer a student, I am going to be so much freer than ever before, and as a church worker I'm going to have the time of my life, getting behind the youth in their growth and spiritual maturing, it is a privilege to be a part of their lives and a part of the team working for the church! This year holds so much I can't even imagine and will be without a doubt the year I will grow more than I ever have in the past. Hoping to get a part-time job in linguistics, we'll see how it goes and then God will speak to me about what he wants for the future... I have faith in that. I have to, I have seen with my eyes the work of the Lord, in my life and in other peoples' lives. I got through my dissertation and exams only by the grace of God and soon I will be completely relying on God financially for next year! So I guess we'll just see how many miracles Jesus will perform, sorry if I don't count them, I've already received many!

Off tomorrow for Italy, to see my parents and sister for a few weeks, any of you are welcome to come along, just e-mail me and get a Stansted-Pisa flight ;)

Enjoy the summer, I am already!